Just had a chat with my mum and my sisters at 1am on the 27 Dec. We were discussing our family’s financial position and possible options for my dad. My dad who is extremely distressed and unhappy over his job because he has terrible superiors. While it is easy to stand from the sidelines and say “just deal with it”, “ren.(tolerate)” the situation is actually very cruel on him. His superior makes awful unnecessary comments about him and crushes his ego to a point where it is hurtful even for me as a daughter to hear. It makes me consider and weigh my own financial options. Should I take up more tuition classes? Should I work harder and start a business quickly? But at the expense of what? My studies, my time, my health, my expenses. I think nothing is impossible.. Only if we are willing to exchange something for it. Should I also become more spiritually sensitive? Should I be vegetarian, should I pray more..
Sometimes I wish I was smarter and more capable because I hope to juggle everything. I should stop hoping and start acting. I need to be smarter and better than my friends to do well in my studies. I need to work faster so that I have time to do my work and teach and still get rest. I need to be more diligent to always keep learning and speak intelligently because it is a useful skill. I need to learn values and open my heart and mind so that i wont spend too much time feeling upset about myself.
Update 29 Dec
I feel that sometimes it is tough to talk to my parents because they are so unfriendly. Sometimes despite our love for them we still end up feeling like they are not the most perfect role models and beings. Sometimes they are contradictory, peculiar abt the things they choose to be upset about, and do things that hurt people. It is true that no humans are perfect and I cannot expect flawless parents. Its just that when I start growing older, I realize the flaws and feel its impact on myself and the people around me, this it makes me feel kinda sad. Are their frowning faces their true self?Because they dont show it to people from outside our home. Why do they only show kindness to people who are not from home?
Update: 31 Dec 2016
I complained and lamented to Little elephant abt my parents as we were casually chatting. He said that perhaps my mum is more irritable because my dad’s mood has been eating into her. I think its very much possible because as a wife, you have a duty to share the woes of your husband. Sometimes it is tough to be happy when people around you is always so unhappy. I am sorry mum.
It has been a month since the trip to Cameron Highlands. I miss it very much because the air was fresh and the company was greaaatt!
We stayed at the Strawberry Park hotel and had a unobstructed view of the mountains. We were literally in the clouds! It was reallllly cold.
Time we went:
We went on a weekday and left during the weekends. This was truly optimal because it wasnt too crowded and we had an entire bus to ourselves!!! 4 people in a 32 seater hehehehe.
We booked our tour locally instead of doing it in Singapore. It was quite hilarious because once we reached CH, a man boarded the bus and immediately introduced a tour plan for us which was perfect!
Places we went to:
Not all places were as interesting as it sounds while some places were really cool!
On the first day we went to the Strawberry Park, we didnt go to the Big Red Strawberry park because it wasnt included in the tour. We went to other farms instead. However it wasnt as impressive perhaps because we found it too expensive to pick them ourselves.
It is okay tho! We still had fun and a good rest.
We saw really beautiful and colourful butterflies, some with huge wingspans and almost luminous colours.
Wasnt really a garden of roses, but an entire place with vibrant colours and paintings all around. It was visually appealing and we took some nice photos there.
The cactus there ranged from miniature to GINORMOUS. Almost the size of a human with a shorter stature. The larger cactus had far less vicious spikes than the smaller ones.
Quite boring here hahhaha. We did see flowers and hens and rooster but other than that.. It is like a slightly larger nursery..
The night market only opens on Friday nights or weekend nights (I forgot)
The food is super yummy and CHEAP.
Nasi Lemak and Asam Laksa was going at 4-6RM, Goreng Pisang at 1 RM for 3. And I tried a little of Ramly Burger!! Not that amazing luh haha. We brought the food back to the hotel and ate to our hearts content.
AND PLAYED DONKEY WITH THE FAM. HEHE.
I tasted the sweetest corn there! I did also, share it with a bunch of houseflies hahaha. It is a wonder I didnt laosai lor.
All things strawberry there. I tried the fried ice cream there, not bad heehe!
It was so beautiful, I tried eating the leaves and it was tasty. The view was truly breathtaking.
Tea Plantation Factory
We saw the process of the tea leaves preparation. It wasnt the most interesting thing hehe..
The Peak of CH
IT WAS COLD up there and we were in the clouds again! Fresh air did smell very good.
Its like a planked route.. the steps were steep too! Not my favourite part of the trip.
the food is all pretty edible, chinese food and really cheap too!
The photos are all on Flickr. 😀
I am excited for Christmas! But also extremely broke. I went for a pocket-burning trip to bugis with little elephant just yesterday. Shopped till drop hahaha. Drop cause no money and also cause my thighs hurt so badly from a long overdue run.
I am typing this on the way back home from work at the preschool. It is heartening to see the exponential growth of the children. In a short time I found myself considerably interested in the behaviour of children and ways to handle them. I learnt that it is important to have routines and be logical and systematic when conversing with them. I regret not being able to learn from Ms Kelly any longer because she is so good at managing children around her. Children behave a certain way based on what they are exposed to. They learn quickly the behaviours and vocabulary used by the people around them.