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Monthly Archives: August 2016

It has been a month since sch started. I feel like this entire month has been truly eventful. Since the first assignment up till now I have been placing a lot of stress on myself to do well. Because I feel like I have to give my best to produce quality work for each submission. Especially since we have informal critiques so often, it is important to give your best so that you learn more. You know if what you did was right or wrong. I feel that critiques let me know if I am going in the right direction or not.
The stress of providing quality work I cannot manage. I realized how I become a completely changed person under stress. I become rude to Little Elephant and expect so much more than he should give. I want to manage my stress better.

Recently my mum got me a new Buddha pendant. It was expensive and hard to get and also said to be really effective in protection, in allowing me to meet good people etc. While I really believe in Buddhism I cannot bring myself to put restrictions on me over it. With the pendant I cannot bring it to the toilet.. I cannot touch it when I am menstruating etc. Its not like I am not grateful, its more like we are living in an age where women seek equality, but we cannot deny that the word “women” has its root word “men” in it. 


Its the end of my second week of sch (: I am still getting to know my new classmates but it is surprisingly easy to remember the names of my friends. I have been sticking with 3 other girls from my class and I think we bond really well together. I appreciate all the fun and care we share among us and I truly hope it last. I will make a conscious effort to do things for them and not take our friendship for granted. Sometimes the thought of being with friends scares me because I am afraid of losing them. But the thought of not having any friends is definitely worse. I experienced it a lot in JC and it has made my life miserable.

School is fine. I kinda dozed off a little during photography class just now.. food coma plus very dry lesson.. It was the first time in my 2 weeks that I did. It was a bit dissappointing because I would have been happy with a clean record. I try to get at least 7 hours of sleep now. I cant believe I only slept 4 hours in JC. While I changed the last minute, i already wasted my J1. Haa why do I keep making comparisons like this.

I am thinking of taking up a job but I am afraid I would be a little too tired. I will go check things out and see what will work for me anyway. Because I want to buy myself a dslr.. and a laptop for my dad. :/ hehe..

I have been hooked onto a drama Line Walker. Its soo good, but with a load of plot twist I am truly confused whos on the good side hehe.